What I would recommend Complexiti is that you call either a local AA hotline or a national one. Even if you don't plan on going to AA, the people at the end of the line that you call are there exclusively to help you and help you quit drinking. They can refer you to resources locally that you may have no idea exist, or they may know of others that would be willing to come to your home and help or help you get to meetings/therapy/rehab.
The difficulty of your situation is understood, but the bottom line is it's not an excuse to not seek help. There is a way for anyone to get sober no matter how dire their situation seems - SR is proof of that. What's missing in the equation is you taking the initiative and action to seek help.