You are still so lucky to be able to do what you are doing. My mum is severely disabled due to ms and now a massive stroke she is now 55 and can hardly talk. She cannot do anything. She was a massive smoker n drinker. She stopped drinking nearly 7 years ago but I believe this is also what caused the stroke.
She doesn't use her disability as any form of excuse and smiles everyday as she is still on this earth.
Please look for the positives and less on the negatives.
Believe me I have had a terrible 2 years but yet im still here fighting xx