Originally Posted by freedragonfly

its great to read some more replies. thanks so much everyone. I was feeling really lonely when I got home from the meeting but reading all this helps. I kept thinking about drinking actually before looking at my computer. I think some of why I drank (at least the reason recently) is that I have too much free time and I would get lonely and bored. I'm trying to fix that now by doing more stuff during the day. For a long time things were pretty bad and I was hardly doing anything except drinking. Now I suddenly have all this free time to fill up. I can finally feel ok to drive places now when not drunk or buzzed.