((BF)). I think lots of us who drink or use feel uncomfortable in our skin but don't know why. You have identified why you're uncomfortable, which is a great breakthrough. The important thing now is to seize upon this insight and do the work to see the wonderful person you are, to realize the gifts you uniquely offer the world. Take Toots' advice and slowly and deliberately press past your comfort zone. Listen to Courage and treat yourself tenderly. And do as Carlos recommends and keep studying. Do you see a therapist? Go to AA? Meditate? Keep a journal? Any or all of these methods will keep you moving forward. I'm so excited for you BF. We're all behind you.