It's great to meet you mrsj. I'm so sorry for the painful situation you find yourself in, but hold on to the hope that things can change and be good again.
I felt so much better when I came here. Just knowing I wasn't alone anymore was such a relief. I never had anyone in my life to talk to about my drinking. Being here gives us chance to be honest and open about what we're going through. I hope you'll keep posting - glad you found us.