The idea that we will pass a threshold and feel better at X number of days can be detrimental in some ways I think. I'm looking out the window right now and it's beautiful outside, but it's easy for me to think that I'm not seeing it with the clarity I should, that something is missing, like I'm viewing life through an extra screen or layer.
Is this even real? Maybe it's always been this way, maybe it's self created. I don't think I ever payed much attention to how I perceived things, prior to my drinking and drugging. Only afterwards, when I was waiting to get back to "normal" did I make up my mind what normal really was.