There are way too many horrifying things that I did to list. The one that is the most life changing though is as clear as day.
I emailed the president and vice president of my company telling them that a decision that they made was the beginning of the end of the company and that they should tell their wives that. Not to mention some of the language that I used within.
Even still, of all the times I woke up wondering what I had done the prior evening I will never forget that morning. Opening my eyes, pondering the prior evening's events, and vaguely remembering looking at words in the body of an email. Then, the surge of agony, anxiety, and pure dread praying to God that I would log on and see it still sitting in my drafts folder. Nope, I sent that sucker. I was mortified and horrified beyond any realm that I ever had been.
Two weeks later I was fired on the date of my 6 year anniversary.