Thank you guys again. Today is another bad day. It's like packing in as many days of abuse until you have to stop. I need to start right now, I'm slowly deteriorating. My memory is gone, I'm doing stupid things like opening the fridge when I want a spoon or leaving my car in drive and walking out. I can just tell my connection is not the same. I appreciate your comments, have read them all and appreciate everything. Don't know how else to put it because it truly does help. I will be hurting again tomorrow and my fight will be weak. Without driving anywhere do you have suggestions for day 1?