Thanks hokey. A lot of wonderful things happened for me when I was sober. I was able to finally end a bad relationship, I moved, reconnected with family/friends and landed my dream job. I foolishy believed that since all these things were "new" in my life that somehow that meant that my drinking problem would be "old" life and not the new one. HA! I'm so pissed off at myself. And to top it all off I started back smoking. Yeah, that thing I quit 8 years ago. SMOKING. What the hell is wrong with me. I'm a freaking wheatgrass drinking vegan for Christ sake.