in early days i had to
clean my flat, something i didnt want to do
clean my shoes, something i didnt want to do
read a book like the big book something i didnt want to do
if i had money for a call then call someone up but that ment going out to use the public phones so i didnt do it
in short i had to do anything other than sit in my own problems and the beauty of it was that when i did just one of these things i found i ended up doing lots more besides i couldnt stop
sometimes i have to do that same thing today 10 years on as i know i need to keep busy and active at times but happily enough its not often not like i had to do it everyday in early days
keep on ploding on one foot in front of the other my friend its hard now but it will get easier