Spent the day with my mom and family. There was wine but I didn't have any. But now.. I am alone for an hour and I honestly considered my usual scenario: get a four pack of beer, no one will know, I won't get drunk and it will taste and feel sooo good. I deserve it. What's four beers? Its Memorial Day, it's summer. Everyone is having a drink. NO NO NO. I am not waking up tomorrow, hangover or not, and hating myself for messing up, once again. And then, after losing my sober time, what the heck, might as well drink after work tomorrow too. And so on. NO. I want this time to be different.
I'm eating a sandwich and getting through this. Not listening to that fool Addiction tell me that it's not a big deal, when it is. I may not be a down and out drunk (yet) but I hate how I feel drinking and after. Drinking just keeps me stuck, nothing changes. I know that a sober life is so much more rewarding and fulfilling.