Originally Posted by Jill23

36 days! My last attempt got me to 52 days but things are different this time. Before, I had no one to be accountable to. This time, I have joined AA and made my husband aware that I am, in fact, an alcoholic and can never drink again. When I first walked into AA I was scared. I really had no idea how the program worked but I knew I was out of options. I made a couple of friends rather quickly and this is helping me stay sober. I DO NOT like letting people down. Even when I was drinking, I managed to keep up with my obligations but had a keen way of limiting any accountability by not letting myself be counted on except for my son. I went to many a practice/bday party/school event hungover as hell, but I was there (it's so much easier sober) I have so many people rooting for me now. It's so nice to have people care about whether or not I stay sober. I know that I have to stay sober for me but while I am healing and filling my toolbox with the tools that will keep me sober, not letting others down is a good motivation.

Isolation is a killer and it puts you behind the starting block when trying to recover. Having a support network, I believe, is the key to recovery. I can't get to meetings everyday because of the distance, but when I'm not at a meeting I am reading posts on SR. I want to be more active on SR so I have even more accountability, I usually don't sign in when I am reading on my phone. I give many thanks for the amazing support on this site.

Peace and love to you all, I hope you all find the serenity you seek.