A Hard Day and Night
Yesterday was my 48th day of sobriety, and it was the first time I was really, REALLY tempted to drink. It was a close call, but I did not do it.
My ex and I talk nearly every day. I still love her desperately, but she has remarried. She was good enough to talk to me for nearly an hour last night. Giving me encouragement.
My problem is, I am so alone. No family at all, no friends who do not drink or get high. Well, one, but he is busy a lot of the time.
People will recommend AA, but I tried it a few times, and for reasons I won't go into here, I can not and will not go back.
Last night was a major victory. A battle won in the war. It sure ain't over, but I am pleased that I have made it this far.