Anewpage, can you distract yourself with something. Read with the kids, watch a movie, walk, keep busy and get the talk out of your head?
When I am sober, watching my husband have 8 beers on a weekend night is helpful once I get past wising I could have the first few drinks with him. I just see where he eventually is so checked out, even if not drunk. And after 2-3, he seems to go more quickly for the next few. I see the switch flip. Not appealing. I don't want to be that. I was.