You have SR and you have AA. Please give sobriety another chance...coming back is tough but the longer you wait the more difficult it will be.
Why don't you start
today?
Dump your booze and your weed and join us at the 24 hours club then pick up that very heavy phone and call one of the ladies you know and like in AA (does not have to be your sponsor just someone who is comfy) and ask her to take you or meet you at a meeting. You can do it, you got support! Use it!!!
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