Thank you for your reply. I actually had two friends come to visit me and I told them. I've never told anyone before. They're both drinking buddies one of whom sells wine and drinks it every day. The other, were it not for his 9 year old daughter, would be a heavy drinker also. Neither of them drink to my level when I binge though, both of whom find it crazy that I can drink first thing in the morning.
I think I need to find a girlfriend who doesn't drink, but even that is hard as I dislike unstructured social situations in which I cannot drink.
I have always had shaky hands, but they are worse amongst lots of people. It's anxiety. But I mean what else do you do when a quick couple of drinks will steady your hands and allow you to be more conversational and interested.