Welcome Mistborn
I think a lot of people get hung up on how often they drink.
I certainly drank often - but for me, and it looks like for you, it was always about how it made you feel.
Alcohol changed me and not for the better. To make it worse I was always torturing myself trying to remember the crappy things I'd done.
It got so I can't remember a lot about whole years let alone specific nights.
You're very wise to look at this now rather than later
It feels awesome not having to be ashamed of myself anymore
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