Thank you, everybody. I think I am going to try and quit. I wrote a bit about this in my latest blog entry. I really really really want to do this. I am really really really scared. But I want to do it more than I am scared, I think.
I think I had been waiting for a time where the good feelings from drinking were not equal to how bad things were, from drinking. But I don't think that will happen. I will ALWAYS enjoy drinking.... I can't drink away the cravings. So if they are going to be just as strong (or stronger) in the future, then drinking now will do nothing but cause horrible damage.
Somehow I have had a change of thinking - I just hope this change stays with me, so I can fight through the cravings and remain strong, and sober. For the rest of my life.