Hi Lucrezia and welcome.
I didn't want to quit. But deep down I knew I had to. It took me a year or so of being on the fence and then I just did it. Believe me, I sure didn't WANT to, but the promises of sobriety were too tempting not to try. I've been living sober for almost 2 years now.
Do I miss it? Yeah. But it's worth the missing to avoid the catastrophes in store had I not quit or go back out.
You will find your path - and this is a great place to figure it out. I wish you serenity and peace whichever path you choose
