Great job on five days.
It sounds like you're coming to some realizations about how drinking affected you.
And you're right, we must always be on awares and not become complacent about our sobriety. It's been three years four months for me, and I still come here daily and pray every day for sobriety and those who still suffer.
And, yes, something as simple as the rain. Oh how I love it. Sober. One day at a time.