You cry whenever you need to without apology. It's never healthy to stuff it inside as I have. Anykey has a darn good idea...maybe you need to take a sabbatical?? I've done that before and it was extremely helpful in connecting spiritually with God and in collecting my thoughts and transforming them into a clear path for myself. I believe even in good times a moment of peace over a weekend to reflect is very healthy and rejuvenating to the soul.