I managed to calm myself down. All it got was a cold shower and breaking 2 empty beer bottles i found lying around in my closet
All the bad for a good cause though. I passed my first bad phase without alcohol.
I thought i'm getting well with sobriety, but it seems like i'm not used to have emotions and they prevailed me easily...
Thank you for your kind words, and mecanix, i wasn't coping, i was barely surviving.
I don't like what person my previous actions forged, even thinking about it gives me a bitter taste in my mouth. I guess the time is the most important thing in life and until now i acted childish and foolish.
Have a great sober night everyone!