Angry at myself
I lost so much time...
I had a lot of time to do and learn a lot of things to make my future bright, instead i stayed with my stupid low paid job where people don't appreciate value.
7 years of my life i lost. Instead of building myself a future i lost my youth working on worthless jobs paying for an useless university degree and drinking alone.
It's nothing new, but today it just hit me like a brick thrown from space. I could have been so high now. Instead i lost my youth, i was a freak, not enjoying life because of work and school and not building a future because of drinking!!!
I cried 2 or 3 times in the last 10 years, but i can't seem to stop now. I've done a lot and i forgave myself a lot, but this time i don't think i can.
I'm sorry for this useless thread, but i just had to tell someone.