Kat,
I know this may sound silly, but could you get a pet? I hear that if you have a therapist recommend it, your landlord may honor it more readily, as theraputic?
I do not like living alone! If I was, without a pet in the house, I'd go bonkers, as I love having the companionship.
After a divorce, years ago, I was so lonely, even though my children lived near. I would cry a lot, too much time in my head. One day, I rescued a lovely girl kitty, and my life was so much better!
Just something that made a difference for me.
Time is a wonderful thing... it helps make decisions easier sometimes. Maybe wait for the answers to become clear. It seems that if I rush to decide something, I feel uneasy, as you are doing. Maybe that is a sign to wait for more clarity?
Just a day at a time.
best wishes to you,
