I used to plan my drunks, sometimes days in advance. Now I am planning my sobriety.
I am facing two nights in a hotel room alone. Formerly this was an opportunity to take the fetters off and rip it up with booze. At home I was still pretending to have some control over my drinking, but on the road, no such worries. No one at the hotel to notice how many times I was refilling my glass or how often (or if I was just drinking straight from the bottle -
so nasty!)
My AV will be very active those two nights. I know this, so I am preparing for it. Plenty of activities planned and bringing along some stuff to do. Boredom is my AV's playground, so I am making a plan to eliminate it from this trip. Probably see me on SR, too.
I know the emotional onslaught of
urge is coming, but I am ready to bat that AV down.
