Hope, glad you are here. I recently joined as well and have definitely had many of the same thoughts as you about moderation. Over this past winter I tried for a while, but then some nights it almost seemed like a distinct point in the night where I would say f* it and go full speed ahead. I am too having to realize that moderation isn't an option for me either. I feel as though many people here are in the same boat... Glad we are all here together!