I nearly got myself free a number of times - but I convinced myself that the other problems sobriety uncovered were worse than my drinking.
I was of course tragically deluded.
It's your choice of course Mak...but you quit for a reason - suggesting that a mere 20 days later you can dance a little with the devil again is every alcoholic's dream.
It seems there are different types of drinkers, i have read some rather perplexing, disturbing, and bizarre stories on here that go something like this:
"I was sober for a couple months, then one day i had just 1 drink....... then i couldnt stop myself and before i knew it i had drank 14 cans, it was like it happened by itself and i had no control at all, like someone else took over my body and mind"
I never went straight from one glass to 20...that would be proof of a problem even I could not deny grubby...
but I don't think you'll actually find many here who claim that. The path is a lot more subtle.
With me it as always gradual - a couple of drinks here...then a few more there, still more some time later.
I was like the mouse who didn't even know he was in the trap. Alcoholism is dangerous because it's so insidious.
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