Originally Posted by
Dee74 
do you know why you're thinking of vodka anewpage?
what do you think it would do for you?
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I'm having a really hard time right now. I think I'm having some kind of panic episode because I'm thinking about it too much and my kids are driving me crazy and I keep thinking, can I really go the rest of my life without alcohol? Yes of course I can, but do I want to? Not really. I want to be normal and drink like normal people drink but of course I can't and i'm just having a really really hard time in my head right now. I don't feel good at all. All I can think of is getting in my car and getting some alcohol. Day 11 and my resolve is leaving fast.