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fedup3 wttbh, I could have written what you just wrote about a new relationship and the kind of marriage I left, ugh. I've actually thought this week that I might start dating and then my mind was filled with all the dreads of I can't go through it again and all the what IF'S! Mostly not being sure of me and my PICKER!
I hope all the best to you that he is a winner and if not, the right one will come along for you.
Yeah I oddly am not dreading the what if he is like AH.... I think if anything I am more likely to push him away bc I convince myself crazily something is wrong when it isn't...
It's almost like with "normal" I don't know what to do... I feel oddly more settled and familiar with dysfunctional than I do normal...
So I suppose it's progress that I am not choosing men who are like xAH...