The way I'm able to glamorise alcohol in my mind is astonishing?
I didn't quite know how to put a title on my post.
On the way home from work today - it's a long drive - I thought of having a 'few drinks' to relax when I got home. It is bizarre that sort of thought still comes to mind so easily when I am so aware of all the disastrous consequences.
I didn't drink and I am sober this evening.I quickly deflected this thought but.... it is quite bewildering how a thought like that can cross my mind. I guess this is what it means to be an alcoholic. So many times in the past - I have let a thought like this gain momentum and the next thing I'm buying wine. I'm glad I let go of the thought today and instead considered the consequences.