Hang in there, Kid! I don't know how long it will take you, but the day comes.
I went to the liquor store yeaterday to buy a bottle of water. I was thirsty on my way home and remembered seeing water in there long ago. (And thinking, who the He77 buys water in a liquor store?)
Well, I do now.
Least ways when I am spontaneously thristy and on my way home from work and haven't planned very well. I don't plan on making it a ritual or anything.
Walked in, looked at all the shackles lined up on the shelves, went to the cooler, got my water and left smiling.
Couldn't have even conceived of doing that a year ago.