Originally Posted by anewpage

I'm on Day 9 and I have come to the conclusion that I cannot go to the store alone. I was going to go today while my husband was at work, just taking my kids with me, but I soon began to plan things in my mind. Buy vodka, hide it in my underwear drawer, drink just a little so that when my husband gets home he won't suspect a thing. Then I started to think about the struggle I've had these past 9 days, and how much I would hate myself if I gave in now. So I told my husband, don't leave me the car today. Take it because I'm plotting in my head. He told me he was proud of me for admitting that. So now I'm home again, with no vehicle and no way of getting any alcohol. I'm alternating between being happy I fought the AV, and also kicking myself because of my missed opportunity! How long before I can trust myself to go to a store alone again?!