Gleefan, I admire how well you are able to express yourself in words. Your comments are always so right on for me. There is a threshold there. I never thought about it quite like that before.
Lately, I've been working on what makes me want to use. I've been able to recognize that besides being something in my head there's a subtle physical thing involved. It feels sort of like hunger. Empty stomach sort of feeling. I don't quite know what to do about it but I think recognizing it is a good thing. When that feeling hits I have been eating some protein and that seems to help. I wonder if anyone else notices a thing like this?