Thank you so much for your words.
Yesterday i went and got more subutex, unfortunaly it wasn't my only buy..
I will start the detox again, and will try not to take the subutex unless i'm really in wd. but after yesterday, i'm sure i will.
I'm trying not to beat myself down and have a positive atittude. I'm sure i'll be back here in a few days to say that all worked ok. My only concern is that i will be with her in a few days and i will tell her that i'm still on subutex, but just because it helps with the anxiety and not because i relapse these two days.. She doesn't deserve the lie, she is a great friend.. But i will not relapse again, i truly believe. I will get some help, maybe return to teraphy or NA.
Thank you, once again