It's now hopeless, Hawk07. The AV tries to make you feel that way but it's not so. If you can't get to the ER call a help line. Ride it out if you must, get some sleep. Look at things in the clear light of day, sober, and figure out what to do. I was in a terrible state when I found SR but things have really improved for me. It can be the same for you.
