It is so nice to see someone come full circle. I went into therapy in my twenties to face my FOO issues. Therapy helped me realize how dysfunctional my family was and that was very validating, however, it is taken me until now (in my forties) to admit and understand that those dynamics affected how I react to the world in many unhealthy ways. (too much people pleasing, trying to control every situation, trying to get my needs fulfilled by overdoing things for other people and then feeling resentful. Drinking away my resentment and then stuffing my feelings, etc.)
As painful as it is, the only way to grow is to face the pain. Thank you for your post!