Meggy,
I remember those times. I'm not a cutter, I'm a drinker, or was. I remember the days that I couldn't wait to go to sleep, but I couldn't sleep, because I was afraid to wake up to another day of the same BS over and over again.
I'm glad that you posted. Lots of people here care about you and love you. I know I do.
Color by numbers, how I remember that and love that. You actually gave me an idea of doing this with you. Thank You.
Just know we are here for you. Always
((((((((hugs))))))))))
It does get better. I swear it does.