Ive been sober 2+ months. My use was enough to get me fired. During rehab, i realized that my quality of life was suffering long before the "wakeup call".
Oh... to have some of those hangover days back. I smiled through them sometimes, but was faking it.
In the morning i do a quick meditation before getting up. I think about how much better today could turn out if only i would have gotten hammered last night. Ha!
Vigilance seems easier if i dont feel like im missing something. Ive been around intoxicated folks a few times since my decision. Im not missing a damn thing.
Ive read the big book stories. I guess if i had a severe memory disorder i could fall back to it after years of sobriety. Otherwise, i think the actual cause might just be as simple as me wanting it.