terrible cravings
sitting here imagining myself pouring a beer, drinking it, then thinking about how i'll feel after a couple beers. i could literally feel the imaginative alcohol running through my body relaxing me..
i then proceeded to imagine this saturday, after i drop off my daughter, going to the store and picking up a 6 pack of budweiser and just casually drinking them. no harm right? (i have my daughter wednesday-saturdays)..
ugh, scary as hell..i have no idea how i would have controlled myself if i had this feeling come over me if it was on a saturday where i'd have no responsibility...