Originally Posted by
james186 
I don't know. I'm possibly willing to try AA at this point. Anything that might help...
Welcome back James! "possibly trying something that might help" 'aint gonna cut it. Not trying to be rude, but you've been here and done this before many, many times. If you truly do mean that you've finally admitted that you cannot moderate, you have to be not only willing, but active and putting in the work/time that is required each and every day. Intending to get sober and getting sober are 2 completely different things. Why not make this the time that you actually do it - we are all here to help you along the way.