Originally Posted by
Croissant 
Why aren't I valuing myself enough that I've even let the AV think it's an option.
You can't control what your AV *thinks*. It's a reflexive impulse created in an area of the brain that doesn't process thoughts.
You CAN control what you do. Some Buddhist monks have calmly burned themselves to death. They hadn't trained themselves not to feel pain, they trained themselves not to react to it.
Keep on keeping on!
