My battle and frustration is "WHY CAN'T I DRINK LIKE EVERYONE ELSE"?? It kills me to know that there is something I can't handle. I usually can handle everything. Acceptance that I can't handle it is hard. But I HAVE to do it. I have no choice because if I don't stay sober I will die with the amount of alcohol my body progressively over the years has demanded.
I have a sports car with a high horsepower motor I built. As much as I'd like for it to be the most powerful car in town it never will be. There is always someone with more money to make theirs faster and more powerful. Just like there are people that will always be able to have that one drink and I cannot! I hate that. But it's the reality. Acceptance is a real bear to deal with. Every day I'm sober I look to comparisons and this is just one of them.