Hi Tetra -
I would like to hang out with you sometime
I do have some of the same feelings as you. Im a 40 yr old guy with only a little sobriety (just shy of two months) and I wonder how I will date or even just make friends outside of aa. It's so frustrating that most social events are centered around alcohol or take place in bars.
Plus who would be interested in me? I've spent most of my life pushing people away because of my addiction. I'm just not used to relating to people in an honest way.
Of course aa tells me to not even worry about relationships at this point and that's probably right. Still when you remove the alcohol the feelings of loneliness rush in and I do feel empty.
I guess time is the best healer but it's so hard to be patient - we so love the instant fix as alcoholics!
You're further down the path than me, but I just wanted to say that your post struck a chord with me so thanks