I am no longer in love with my XAH. All of the crap over the years just chipped away at it until there was nothing left. I consider the fact that I do not love him a GIFT. It was hard when I was in love with him and worrying about him and myself and trying to make sense of nonsense.
Now I wish him the best and no longer live in insanity. Life is much better this way. It would be hard if I were still in love with him.