Do you have any NA meetings near you? Helped me to go to a meeting and get out of my own head. I talked and shared and others called me throughout the days, someone even came to sit with me. During those days I felt like the world was a bad dark place but it GETS BETTER> I took so many hot baths, read through SR, watched the movie step brothers over and over (makes me laugh) journaled, cried, called people from NA and cried more…. As much as I tried to keep it all to myself I wanted the outside support.