pray you never DO know what it's like to live in that hell for years on end. be grateful it was a few short months of experience. should be all you need really!!!!!
in the future some things to watch for.....finding yourself over the moon attracted to somebody - falling in love almost instantly - finding them "charming" and "irresistible." Addicts have CHARM down to an art form - it's not really a positive trait, it's scheming and manipulative and intended to get you so starry eyed and giddy that they've got you hooked before you knew what hit you.