Thank you PBC. I remember when you first posted that analogy and it's a great one. I have been in a vicous cycle for the last couple months of closing the door and immediately opening it. Something about it staying closed terrifies me. And I was happily sober just a couple short months ago!! ARGH this disease is maddening!!
rochele - we can start again together. sounds like we are both "newbies" again. we can hold each other accountable...but I'm warning you I will be cranky and whiny for a while! I'll understand if you need to kick me to the curb lol