Originally Posted by
AnvilheadII 
so what am I doing getting distracted mentally by a man who isn't even a part of my real life.
getting mentally distracted from real life....
Thank you: yes, that was a better way of putting it!
I know this isn't a feasible thing and, quite frankly, it's not really in my personality to even go there in reality. I know I have a lot of work to do on myself, whether I stay married or not. I think I was just enjoying the distraction that I was creating and then chastising myself for even allowing my brain to go there.
As Stung said, the grass is always greener....and sometimes, it's not. I've learned that lesson in other ways, too.