Hugs to you. Its hard, it sucks, but its the right decision. I dunno if the pain gets better, or lessens, it hasn't for me, but it has become bearable. I no longer feel like I am bent over double with the pain of it. Just keep repeating over and over and over to yourself....You did the right thing. You did the right thing....because as much as it hurts....you really did the right thing. Right now it probably feels like you cannot breathe, like you've been punched in the gut and your future is just wiped out. I promise you it has not been. Take it slow, give into the tears and just let yourself cry. It helps. Just get through a few minutes at a time and love yourself a little extra. Have a long hot shower, or a nice soak in the tub. You can do this, you can bear this.