Welcome, and I'm glad too, that you are seeing a counsellor. I think the process could be very helpful for you.
I'm very sorry for the loss of your mother and the trauma it caused in your life. I hope that you will continue to seek answers. Being sober will, I think, give you the base that you need. I do not believe that you are weak-willed or broken, but you need a firm base to continue to grow in your life. I hope that you won't give up on yoga and meditation. I do understand that it's hard to stick with them, but it is with those things that I am able to find many answers.